The Feeling of Nothing

Nothing happened. Just
A detonation
In my head.
A frightening splatter
Of grey matter,
A shattering 
Of synapses,
A sickening freefall.

Nothing made sense.
Explanation
Defied me,
Fear festered;
Made the unreal
Become real, 
Knowledge
Unbearable.

I knew they’d come for me
If I let on.
I knew they’d belittle me
If I talked.
I couldn’t sleep
Or trust my splintered head
To tell one truth
Against another.

So nothing happened. Just
A suffocation
In my head,
A silencing
Of dread.
Losing my reason.
Losing my gravity.
In freefall.
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